This morning was rough- I really, really, really didn’t want to make anything! I felt like I had a rebellious, resentful teenager living in my head whining, “Nooooooooo, I don’t waaaaannnntttt tooooo….” Have you ever felt that way about anything before? My alarm kept going off and each time I refused to get up and get going. I finally got myself out of bed and started to do all my adult responsibilities the entire time hearing the voice in my head rebellion against doing anything creative.
“This is dumb!”
“I don’t want to do anything!”
“This is a stupid challenge, no body cares.”
“It’s just going to be crap anyway, why bother?!”
And the chatter went on and on. Why do I share this with you? Because I don’t think I’m alone here. I think many of us who are creatives have experienced something like this, some sort of resistance or the constant chatter telling us to just stop creating. This is a much longer topic for another post, but I wanted to share this part of my process with you for anyone who needed to know that you’re not alone. This chatter is sometimes part of the creative process to overcome.
I also realized it was a big reason why I needed a challenge like the 365 Days of Creativity. By creating a daily habit of creativity I’m making myself create whether I feel like it or not. Woody Allen was quoted as saying, “Showing up is 80% of life.” As with many others who have substituted “life” for “success” I think showing up is the biggest factor in our success- perhaps 80% of success! I have nothing to base this on other than what I’ve seen and experienced in life and I for one am not going to argue with Woody Allen. I think our success as creatives and artists is also showing up. The more we consistently we create, the more inspiration, creativity, ideas, and other measures of artistic and creative success will come our way.
So I took a quick look at saved links on Facebook that I had and chose one that’s been in my list for over a year- these Giant Paper Bag Stars. Once I started I couldn’t make just one, I made three with all kinds of grandiose ideas of where I was going to put them in my house. I hadn’t actually realized quite how big they are when grouped together- oh my! But I’m not afraid, they will be going up on one of my walls this week. Why not? Who doesn’t love ginormous stars?! Once Goose saw these she decided she wants pink ones for her room. I’ll be grabbing some pink bags this weekend to make her a set to hang from her ceiling…how much fun is that? When you’re six it’s apparently A LOT of fun as she yelled out, “WOO HOO!” when I said yes.
This story of creative perseverance (aka stubbornness) would be fine as is, but the giant stars weren’t even the best part of my creative time- I also am almost finished with making a really fun accordion letter thingy for a friend of mine. This is an idea I’ve had for a long time, but perfectionism and creative paralysis kept me from ever starting. I only have 3 more panels on it and it’ll be ready to send to her!!! I’m so excited to finish. I can’t post pictures yet, but once it’s sent out I’ll share some of it with you. And the best part of it is I used a bunch of supplies that I didn’t even know I had because I cleaned my studio last week in anticipation for beginning this creativity challenge!
I can’t wait to get in my studio to make some more stuff…which is a far cry from where I started this morning!