This morning, as I was journaling, I pulled the Spider card from the Medicines Card deck. For me this card represented my morning journaling that I had been procrastinating on all morning today, my blog, and a reminder to keep creating every single day. Inspired by the message of this I decided to do a canvas of a spider. After doing some journaling about what spider medicine meant to me right now I quickly did a few sketches of ideas for my canvas. What I settled on was a spider web with all of the things that I feel keep me from creating and succeeding as an artist. The vision I had was as I dropped these thoughts and ideas that “bug” me into spider’s web she could then feed on them making herself strong and releasing them from me.
I grabbed a canvas that I had used several times last year to “clean” my brushes on. This means that when I was done with a color during a painting session I would add the color to this canvas so as not to waste the paint. It gives a fun way to add a layer or two to a canvas or paper that I’ll want to paint on later. (I’ve included some photos at the end that show this exact process that I did today after my painting session.) In my painting process I use many layers to get to my final piece.
As I was getting ready to do the spider web I got the idea of using a doily stencil with gold paint for the web. I saw it as a golden web that connects us all together plus it felt a little magical and fantastical that she would be weaving a golden doily web. I also really like golden orb weaver spiders and their golden webs. So a gold web it would be!
Next came a big, beautiful black spider in the center and lots of emotional words written throughout the web. I could feel the release as I wrote my thoughts and emotions out knowing that by doing this they would no longer have power over me. I was naming them and taking control of my life again!
Lastly I painted around the web shades of blue to give it an ethereal feel of floating in the heavens. Another nod to the mystical within her web.
All and all this was a healing experience for my heart. I was able to push through some mental blocks that have been keeping me from creating. I love the way it turned out and can’t wait to hang it in my studio as I reminder to stay out of my own way and keep creating every single day!